Monday, August 27, 2012

Picture

Baby Leo
I'm posting more over on his blog.


Saturday, August 25, 2012

Leo update

Leo is doing well so far.  It's a bummer to see how much he's been poked and how much he has to be hooked up to,  but we know it's not much compared to what's coming.

His first heart surgery is scheduled for Tuesday afternoon. It should take about 6 hours.  We are holding him as much as we can before then. 

He is absolutely beautiful and we love him a whole bunch. 

We feel so blessed that he is here safely and so far no surprises.  

(Super sorry if you have tried to call, I have zero service on my phone.)

Friday, August 24, 2012

Leo

 Leo made it into the world!  And he waited 39 weeks!!! He is a champ already.
He has light red hair just like Macy did and I think I spotted a dimple.  I got to hold him for a few minutes. Right now he is with Scott getting settled at Primary Children's Hospital.

Sorry no pictures.     I'll try get some ASAP.

Waiting

This was my fortune from Tuesday nights Chinese dinner!

Monday, July 16, 2012

Leo's Blog

I started Leo his own blog.
Some friends and family have asked how they can stay updated on what's going on. So here it is.



Hopefully I'll have a way to post while Leo and I are in SLC.
His due date is getting closer and I am trying to enjoy this life we have now.
I know it's going to change soon and I hope everyone (the kids) adjust o.k.
The last time we met with the Pediatric Cardiologist he told us, 
"No matter how hard you think this is going to be, it's going to be harder."

Gulp and blink.

I could have used some more encouraging words, but I think he is trying to prepare us, which I appreciate.

And a big thanks for everyone's kind words and support!

Monday, July 2, 2012

Farm Reunion

This happened in real life.
I know.  We have dedicated enough posts to Abe and Tractors.  
But, then this happened... 





Scott's family had a reunion on his aunt and uncle's farm in Idaho.
This was kid heaven.

There were tractors of course.
And a zip line, and a teeter totter (how do we spell this word?), and a slide, a movie outside, and water fights and lots of butterflies to catch.

Scott and I mostly sat back and watched our kids have the time of their lives.
The best kind of reunion, I say.





 Abe was actually scared of this "big, big tractor".  Equally scared and fascinated.  I'm going to start calling him "B.R."  Short for Broken Record.  This kid can talk about the same thing for one hour.  I will quote him now,
"Big, big actor.  Go on it.  Open doors.  Watch out other actors!"
I kept having to send him to tell other people.








Some of our favorite people.  Grandma and Grandpa Great










Abe really wants to go back to the "arm".

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

My Wonderful

Some days life is hard.
Most days it is wonderful.
This is what my wonderful looked like today.








A sprinkler, my babies in swimsuits, AND getting along.

Friday, June 15, 2012

The Obsession Continues

Abe thought he heard a tractor outside.




He absolutely could not be bothered to wait for clothes.
Or to get his hat on straight.

Sunday, May 27, 2012

Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome- A post I never wanted to write

My fourth ultrasound.  Our last child. It was going to be a breeze.  I had planned to celebrate that night with a fun family dinner, followed by a pink cake or a blue one.


The tech glided along with her running commentary of what we were looking at. See the baby's little fingers?  Here's the stomach, the spine, the brain, little feet, legs.  It looks like a boy!  Yay!  A boy!  Just what we were hoping for...quickly she was back to the heart.  Why is she back at the heart again?  She has spent a lot of time there.  I watched the fast thump, thump thump on the screen.


I looked nervously at Scott.  Did he notice how much time she was spending looking at the baby's heart?  He didn't seem to notice.  The tech kept the same calm expression.

"There's just one thing I want the doctor to look at..."


And then another doctor.


"It looks like Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome".
Pardon?  I heard the doctor say heart and syndrome.  Heart and syndrome.
"It means, the left side of your baby's heart is small and underdeveloped.  The left side of your baby's heart will continue to deteriorate and have no function."


My baby.


A few weeks later, the pediatric cardiologist at Primary Children's made sure we knew how serious this diagnosis is.  His face showed it.  The room he brought us to.  The cozy couch.  The lamp.  The box of tissues.  Two women followed us into the room.


"It's not the most rare heart defect, but it is among the most serious and complex."  What was I listening to?  I tried hard to concentrate on his words, the diagrams he was showing us.  


"This is a normal heart"
I've seen enough pictures of a normal heart to last me for a while. 
Thank you.


He told us we had a choice to make.  We could choose to do nothing.  Take our baby home.  The valve currently connecting the left side and right of the heart would take a few days to close after birth.  Our baby would die.


Our other choice was hard too.  Heart surgery.  A minimum of 3.  One when he is a few days old. One when he is 4-6 months old.  One when he is about 3.  The heart can't be fixed, just re-plumbed.  He would live his life with half a heart, acting for both sides.  No one knows how long a heart can sustain life this way.  They haven't been doing it long enough.  Not a lifetime.  It is a hard road, with lots of risks and possible complications.  Expect them.  


I held it together for as long as I could.  He was talking about my baby. He fumbled to hand me the box of tissues.


I went home and looked at my 3 beautiful children.  Their healthy bodies have become an unbelievable miracle that I had been taking for granted. Everything works. 


My brain cannot quite process the thought of one of my children enduring such a thing.  Including this newest little boy, whom I love with such fierceness.


We have to try. I have to trust in the Lord.


I am unbelievably scared. Every day I have to make an effort to not get overwhelmed.  There are so many unanswered questions.


One thing I am sure of is that he was always meant to be part of our family.  We will love him forever.  We hope and pray that we get to do that here on earth. For a long, long time.


Thump, thump, thump.

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Glimpse


Abe's shoes end upon my kitchen windowsill  a lot lately,
after I scrub the mud off of them.
If there is mud outside, he will find it.
I kind of like them there.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

A Very Tractor Birthday

Abe has an obsession.  
It involves garbage trucks, fire trucks, buses and especially tractors!  4 or 5 months ago, his auntie read him their book about different kind of trucks.  A book we took home and read 67 times a day.  He napped with it.  No biggie.

That was the beginning.  We talk about tractors a lot.  I looked up tractor cakes on Pinterest.  I scrolled through for 5 or 10 minutes.  Abe sat at the computer for a good 30.  He has been shouting TACTOR CAAAAAKE ever since.

He especially loved us singing Happy Birthday to him, which we did over and over at his request.




He thought the harmonica Auntie Annie gave him was super funny and has been playing it ever since.  This morning it included some foot stomping.
















Abe is about the funnest 2 year old ever.  He makes us laugh a lot. And only throws fits on occasion, when he really means it!  (Like when we have to pry him off of a tractor.)  

Monday, April 16, 2012

Easter

The Easter Bunny (which my girls don't believe in, but pretend that they do for fun!) got creative with hiding the baskets.

Macy's for example was on the roof.  A spot she did not find clever or funny. She was NOT climbing the ladder to get it.

Abe was very excited to have a basket with of eggs candy of his own and happily posed for pictures.




On our way to church, including the girls jumbo Easter pencils naturally.



Friday, April 13, 2012

Eggs

This Easter we thought it would be fun to dye our eggs with foods we had in the house.  
It turned out to be a fun science experiment.

I love free!




Bluish/purple- blueberries
Purple- grape juice
Yellow- turmeric
Orange- chili powder
Pink-bright pink flowers leftover from our anniversary
Green-Chlorophyll (from my mama)

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Dealing With Dragons

Macy has been going to a drama class at Unicorn Theater and was just in her first play, Dealing With Dragons.

She auditioned for a non-speaking part and was cast as a princess.  She quickly decided that a small, non-speaking part was a little boring and wants to try for a speaking part next time.

She was a great princess and she had a lot of fun.





Royal Family exiting the stage after their applause.





Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Polly turned 6

This is the first year Polly has wanted to have a party with friends.
She only wanted to invite girls and only a few.
We went to Beadles where the girls made jewelry.

  They took their beading very seriously.





This is my favorite of Polly checking out her new necklace.
Of course she did NOT know I was taking her picture...



True to her true self, she only wanted ice cream.
I even tried talking her into an ice cream cake and she agreed if it was solid ice cream shaped like a cake with frosting.  I wasn't sure I could make that happen.


Polly is a wonderful 6 year old.
She has a perfectly infectious giggle.
She is kind, considerate and the peacemaker in the house.
She loves hugs and snuggling up to her favorite people.
We are lucky to have her! 


Wednesday, April 4, 2012

10 Years

Our marriage turned 10 years old last month.
I'm very happy about that.

I thought possibly my dear husband was up to something...
The morning of our anniversary, he had lovely flowers and a card for me.
Including a note saying he had planned a weekend getaway for us!

He arranged everything including the kiddies.
All I had to do was pack.  We were leaving that afternoon.
The most darling (and true) part was the end of the letter said,
"I know this is probably giving you anxiety, but breath deeply and relax, everything is taken care of."
And it was.

We went to Capitol Reef (neither of us had been before)
The weather wasn't perfect, but we managed to get a few hikes in and had a great time being together.







That Scott is a keeper.